psycho_death_child's Xanga

slip out the back

Tue, 05 Jun 2007 00:55:12 GMT

You know me, I used to get caught up in everyday life
Tried to make it through my day so I could sleep at night
Tried to figure out my way through the maze
Of rights and wrongs, but like you used to say
Nothing feels like it's really worth it
Forget perfect, I'm trying not to be worthless
Since I last saw you I been looking for a purpose
Well I met this kid who thought like I did
He had a weird way of looking at it
This is what he said

Slip out the back before they know you were there
And at the worst you'll see nobody cares
Cos you don't wanna be around when it all goes down
Even heroes know when to be scared
Slip out the back before they know you were there
And at the worst you'll see nobody cares
Cos you don't wanna be around when it all goes down
Even heroes know when to be scared

I don't remember where I met him or remember his name
But he walked funny like he was just too big for his frame
Just over five foot but he weighed a buck fifty
And what he said just seemed so right it stuck with me
Listen its like poker you can play your best
But you got to know when to fold your cards and take a rest
And know when to hold your cards and hold your breath
And hope that nobody else is stacking the deck because
I don't need to tell you that life isn't fair, it doesn't care
It arbitrarily cuts off your air, and like you I want someone to say its OKAY
But in the truest parts of our hearts everybody's afraid
But just underappreciated and overwhelmed
Fighting so hard to hide our fear that were scaring ourselves
You understand when I'm saying that you always did
But its different in the words of a cowardly kid

Slip out the back before they know you were there
And at the worst you'll see nobody cares
Cos you don't wanna be around when it all goes down
Even heroes know when to be scared
Slip out the back before they know you were there
And at the worst you'll see nobody cares
Cos you don't wanna be around when it all goes down
Even heroes know when to be scared

I'm no hero, you remember how I was, you know
All I ever did was worry, feeling out of control
To the point where everything was going end over end
I'm spinning around in circles again
This is where you come in
All of this to explain to you why
I had to separate myself away from yesterday's life
Please remember this isn't how I hoped it would be
But I had to protect you from me
Thats why I slipped out the back before you knew I was there
I know you felt unprepared
But every single time I was around I just bring you down
And I could tell that it was time to be scared
Thats why I slipped out the back before you knew I was there
And I know the way I left wasn't fair
I didn't want to be around just to bring you down
I'm not a hero but don't think I didn't care

seamus

Wed, 25 Apr 2007 22:58:01 GMT

hey i wanted to tell you your awsome and i love talkin to you can't wait to see you!!!!

Raped

Fri, 20 Apr 2007 22:52:27 GMT

RAPED

The passion and protest
The Violence of rape
Trapped in time
On a video tape

He wore a mask
To hide his face
I fought for life
Against his knife

Please don’t hurt me
Just take what you need
Don’t leave any bruises
And don’t make me bleed

He ripped at my clothes
Ravaged my body
Threw me on the floor
Brandishing me a whore

He bound me with ropes,
Stomped all over my heart
Trampled my dreams
Tore my whole life apart

He broke my nose
So I couldn’t breathe
He blackened both eyes
So I can’t see

Just get it done
Whether wet or dry
Pump ‘til your empty
Then leave me to cry

He took my dignity
My honor, my pride
So I’m not the same me
That I used to be

new school...Grout Park in Schenectady

Fri, 20 Apr 2007 00:35:29 GMT

I finally am in school!!!! It's called Grout park years ago but now it's call northeast.It's alright i've only been there for about 4 days and it's going ok so far i met this kid Adam and he's really cool.He asked me out the second day i was there and asked me to the prom soo...were goin to prom together i met this out of control chick Gracie i've been talkin her out of flippin out and helpin her stay with her Anger Mangment therapy and shot like that and a gay kid named Tim who's fricken awsome he is so fricken hillarious!!We call the teachers by the first names and there's dogs walking around and there's this place you go if you get in trouble or get to mad it's called "time out" and i swear to god it's a frcken jail cell.Well ttyl peaze outtt

For The Children

Fri, 20 Apr 2007 00:16:41 GMT

For every child who cries at night
Alone with shame and fright
For every child who wants so much
To only feel a gentle touch
For the beaten cild, who cries in pain
Whose tears run silent, like the rain
For the child used to satisfy lust
Who never learns to love or trust
For the child taken from her/his home
And made to feel so all alone
For the child whose home is just a shell
Where life becomes a living hell
For the child who smiles but cannot feel
Because of scars too deep to heal
For every child who yearns for love
I hope and pray to God above
To hear your cries and heal your pain
And give you back your life again

goals for april!!!!!!!

Mon, 02 Apr 2007 11:44:36 GMT

did it all!!!!

just a question

Thu, 29 Mar 2007 00:03:46 GMT

if everyone in the world clap thier hands at the same time could we break the sound barrier?

weed

Wed, 28 Mar 2007 00:02:53 GMT

weed should be legal really think about it how many people do you know actually die from smoking pot??Really pot isn't that bad i mean so many drunk people die each day how many pot smokers? think about it

switching back.....

Mon, 26 Mar 2007 23:57:30 GMT

ok so i have decieded to switch back my Xanga to plz you dumb asses i lost a couple good subscribers since the switch so yupp it's back. Weed,Drugs,Cigs, and reality some things will stay the same don't worry.

sincerly yours,

mieanda

crying

Sat, 17 Mar 2007 00:38:10 GMT

I want to just go sit in my room to cry mself into a land of love and friendship caring new ways were the government is actually there for you and the people around actually love you and act like real people. LIFE SUX